My Grateful and Dreadful Experience from a Teacher

A school is a great place for a child to learn and experience the society. A training or simulation for the world perhaps, and experiences are very valuable. Experiences are either fun or not at all, may it be from friends, classmates, from the family or from a teacher at school. In my elementary and high school years I have encountered different teachers, I remembered when I was in second grade I cried because I did not have the same teacher when I had in the first grade.

            I have many great experiences from a teacher, and my greatest one was working with one of them, well not directly worked with them if I would say so. You could say she was just assisting. Her daughter was one of my group mates on an investigatory project, afraid her daughter might fail on the project, that teacher decided to help us. She was, of course, strict, as expected from a teacher. I was constantly on alert whenever a problems would come up regarding our project, just like survival instincts kicking in.

            There were upsetting moments, like being scolded from all the mistakes done regarding the project. Looking back from it all, I learned a lot, it served as a background for me on how a group project should be done, an investigatory project to be specific. Although there were hair raising and nerve wrecking experiences from her, I did not consider those experiences to be dreadful, since all those things were for us to learn and grow, she was not bringing us down,  in fact she lifted us up and I am thankful because of her. She brought out the best in me.

            In life, dreadful encounters or experiences are inevitable, and coming from a teacher, that would be unforgettable. Based on my experiences, I haven’t had any teachers who had brought me down, like embarrassed me in front of my classmates, or being failed because he/she did not like. Perhaps it was due to the fact that I was enrolled in a catholic school for the past ten years, specifically my elementary and secondary education. Teachers were mostly in their right behavior, there would have been conflicts between students and teachers, but I had nothing to do regarding those kinds of issues. I was overall, a silent, obedient and gentle natured when I was in school.

            If I had to choose a dreadful experience from a teacher, it would be all the times they would go berserk in class. It would either be the whole class made some sort of mistake or they would take their anger out on us for something we did not do. I guess that’s how school society is, there are just some problems of a teacher that’s too hard to hide from your students, may those problems contain anger, sadness or disappointment. Given the fact they are professionals, their also humans who expresses emotion. As a student, these kinds of experiences molded me of who I am today, regardless may those experiences be grateful or dreadful, the important thing is to learn from those and later apply what you learned. 

My Dream as a Teacher

            Reach for the stars, is a saying that conveys to keep chasing your dream, and I intend to do just that. Nobody can dictate what you want in life especially when it comes to your dream. Each of us has different dreams that we want to reach, and it can be achieved by hard work. Nothing is free in this world we live in, we make necessary sacrifices to get to our dream, but of course we should still be careful of how we get to that dream of ours. We should still be walking on the right path that God is guiding us, not through the easy way that we could walk on other people and hurting them in the process.

            My dream as a teacher, maybe a little selfish, but you can’t judge my dreams right? Anyways, I want my students to idolize me, not through some fancy talk, or awesome talents, but in a way that they would be inspired in life, as another saying goes, aspire to inspire before you expire. I’m not saying they should become like me, a teacher, but I want them to become hard workers that would achieve greater heights in life. I envision my students to be successful, what teacher who does not want that for their students? Well my dream doesn’t stop there.

            Although out of context of being a teacher, I always wanted to finish my studies in BS-Marine Transportation, apart from teaching I always wanted to travel around the world. I want to see the actual Eiffel tower, Big Ben, Lady Liberty, cross the Panama Canal, set foot in Japan and try to eat Ramen that Naruto always eat in the anime. In other words, I want to explore the world and the things it has to offer, and being an able bodied seafarer, I can travel the world, have a decent pay check, support my family, and an unforgettable experience. It’s a win to win situation, like hitting two birds with one stone or in this case a hitting a flock of birds with one stone?

            Since being a teacher, and a seafarer are very different things, you might be asking yourself, why these two professions? I could have just studied and finished BS-Marine Transportation and live life without worries unlike teachers making lesson plans, grades and other things that teachers need to do. Well to tell you frankly, I don’t care about those things, well maybe a little, but remember what I mentioned earlier? I want my students to idolize me. To tell you the truth, I was a collage failure. I had been enrolled  to 2 colleges and 1 University and failed my courses there, and now, I want to make something of my life. I want others to be inspired by my life story, and what better way than to be a teacher. Teaching the young souls gives me purpose, I don’t know but I think I’m in love with teaching, based from experience. It’s like the students gave me a satisfying feeling that they listened to my stories and they would be amazed from it. It was like God was telling me that “Hey, you could become a teacher, you’re good at this”.

            To think that I want to inspire other people, through teaching, you’d think I’d forget about my family? My family is the top of my list of protecting, helping, and most of all to love. I’m not thinking about making my own family any time soon. I still have pending dreams and make them come true. In my family, I love my two little brothers, no matter how old they are now or in the future they will still be my little brothers, and my dream for them as a teacher is to see them walk away from my custody with a college diploma in their hands and are geared up of what life is going to give them. As for my parents, I just want them to trust me on how to live my life, and when they grow old, it would be my turn to take care of them. In the future, I want my parents to pass away without regrets, and us, as their sons, I think it is our responsibility to make that happen, the “without regrets” part not the pass away part. All these things that you have just read are the list of my dreams as a teacher, but I think my dreams doesn’t end here, the list might become longer as I continue on with my life, well I guess keep dreaming and keep striving. 

P.E. Practicum

Watch my classmates as they give it their all on their performance in P.E. 

The Limped became dancers hahaha 

I'm so Proud of them :3

Dragon Nest Saint

This fan-art reminds me of my Classmate :3 hehe

I can totally picture him like this ^_^

Saint fanart by 아플레라이트
http://dn.happyoz.com/community/fanart/read.asp?EcrkF3qgcem4znhyD2Lmz0Z3bsAcs42yYgK0OG9CM2bmSnw0LHAUR0NbJnq3

Dark Clouds

Waiting for someone to complete the other half

Cold Evening Everyone

Maling Pag-ibig

Maling pagibig nga naman

Sa akin ay nakalaan

Ilang beses pinigilan

Ikaw pa rin magpakailanman

Hindi ko alam kung bakit siya?

Kaibigan ko’y hindi Masaya,

Nang  nalaman na siya pala

Ang nagustuhang maging prinsesa

Para siyang magandang buwan

Sobrang layo hindi ko maarok

Itinaga sa bato kong pag-ibig

Ma angkin siya at di mapapahamak

Tanong ng iba

Kung bakit siya pa?

Anong meron sa kanya

Na hindi makikita sa iba?

Tanong na di ko masagot

Basta’t ang isipan ko’y di nababagot

Sa kakaisip sa kanyang kalagayan

Ang mahal kong kaaya-aya

Hindi ko man masabi sa kanya

Ang pag-ibig kong nadarama

Pero kahit di niya malalaman

Siya aking lihim parin hahangaan.

Ang Inspirasyon ko

Inspirasyon isang bagay na importante sa lahat. May iba’t ibang rason kung bakit ka nagkakaroon nito, maaring sa isang taong importante sayo, bagay, o pangarap na makamit. Lahat tayo ay may kanya-kanyang inspirasyon at isang malaking bagay ito sa atin, maliit man o malaki sa mata ng ibang tao. Maari ito isang tao na iniidolo mo o hinahangaan, at ako bilang isang tao rin, ay may inspirasyon din ako.

            Ang inspirasyon ko sa buhay una ay ang Diyos natin makapangyarihan, dahil sa hindi niya tayo iniiwan, siya ang gumagabay sa atin sa mga problema, hinagpis, kalungkutan, kasiyahan, at tagumpay natin sa buhay. Ang paniniwala ko sa kanya ay hindi mababali, dahil siya ang nagbibigay lakas sa akin para ipagpatuloy ang ladas ng buhay na tinatahak ko. Alam naman natin na hindi madali harapin ang buhay, pero sa tulong ng panginoon naniniwala ako na makakaya ko ito. Natutunan ko sa kanya na lahat ng problema ay may solusyon, hindi dapat napupunta sa marahas, at maling gawain. Alam kong masyadong isip bata ang ganitong pagiisip pero bahala kayo diyan, wala akong pakialam hanggat hindi ninyo inaapakan ang aking paniniwala na ang Diyos ay tumutulong sa atin sa pangaraw-araw, at alam ko hindi iiwan ng diyos sa mga haharapin natin na problema natin ngayon at sa kinabukasan.

            Pangalawa, ang inspirasyon ko sa buhay, bilang isang hindi hamak na istudyante at anak lamang, ay ang aking pamilya. Ang mga magulang ko ay ibinigay sa  akin ang lahat ng gusto ko, pinalaki nila ako na may pinag-aralan. Ginagawa nila ang lahat ng makakaya nila para lang makatapos ako. Umutang, prenda kahit anong paraan para lang matustusan ang pagpapaaral sa akin. Isa din ang mga magulang ko sa iniidolo ko, kasi kahit anong kasalanan ko na gagawin ko ay pinapatawad nila ako. Kapag una ay magaglit sila, natural lang yun, sino ba namang magulang hindi magagalit kapag ang anak nila ay gumawa ng katarantaduhan o kagaguhan diba? Pero hindi tatagal ay  papatawarin naman ako nila.

Isa din sa mga inspirasyon ko sa buhay ay ang anking dalwang kapatid. Subalit ang sumunod sa akin ay iba ang ama niya, kapatid ko pa rin siya dahil sa parehas kaming ina. Iniisip ko sila kapag nahihrapan ako sa pag-aaral ko. Kasi ang gusto kong mangyari ay makatpos din sila sa pag-aaral, at ako ang tatayo na sunod na Padre de Pamilya, gusto ko silang makita sa susunod na sampung taon nasa Kolehiyo na nagaaral na ako ang umaatupad sa kanila. Hindi ko gusto na bumagsak sila sa tinatahak natin na landas na kung ay tatawaging “’buhay”. Gusto ko silang tulungan, gusto ko silang alagaan, at higit sa lahat, gusto ko silang protektahan. Ang sabi nga sa isang “Anime” na napanood ko, “Magiging malakas ka kapag mayroon kang mga mahal sa buhay na pinoprotektahan”, at naniniwala ako sa linyang binitiwan na ito. Siyempre hindi lamang ang mga kapatid ko ang gusto kong protektahan pati na rin ang buong pamilya ko.

Pangatlo sa listahan ng mga inspirasyon ko ay ang aking hinahangaan kong kaklase, hindi ko babanggitin ang pangalan kasi alam kong hindi niya gusto  makita ang pangalan niya dito baka pagalitan niya ako. Kung ilarawan siya ay, mahinhin, tahimik, at ang mga ngiti niya, para sa akin, ay parang liwanag galing sa langit, makita ko lang siya na nakangiti ay gumagaan ang aking pakiramamdam, iniisip ko tuloy kung droga ba siya para may ganung epekto sa akin. Matalino nga siya sa larangan ng akademiko, bilib ako sa galing niya na mag memorize, palagi mataas ang kanyang mga marka, exam man yan o quiz, pero pagdating naman sa “public speaking” ay nauutal siyang magsalita, isang problema niya yun na nakikita kong napaka “cute”. Pero noon yun, nagbago siya, sa rason na hindi ko alam, namatay na siguro ang dating siya na hinahangaan ko at may pumalit na bago. Pero sa puso’t isipan ko ay buhay na buhay siya, nagbabasakali na babalik ang dating siya na nakilala ko.

Pang-apat naman sa aking listahan ng inspirasyon ko ay isa na namang kaklase ko, napahanga talaga ako sa mga abilidad niya, may kakayahang kumanta, matalino, marunung magdala ng groupo, at siyempre mabait at may takot sa panginoon. Makita ko lang siya na umakto bilang isang lider ay napapahanga na ako. Maliit lang ang alam ko sa mga pinagdadaan niya sa kanyang buhay. Pero sa mga kwento niya na sa akin ay napa bilib ako sa determminsyon niya na makapag-aral. Para sa akin, dapat bigyan na siya ng karangalan bilang magiting na anak at istudyante. Siguro pinagmamalaki siya ng kanyang mga magulang sa pinapakita niyang mga resulta sa kanyang mga gawain sa kumunidad. Kilala siya at alam ko yun dahil sa isang espesyal at kahangahanga niyang posisyon. Basta ang masasabi ko lang ay pwede siya maging isang modelo sa mga kabataan ngayon, isa siyang mabuting impluwensya.

Ang panghuli kong inspirasyon ay ang mga kaibigan ko, hindi rin nila ako iniiwan sa mga problema kong dinadaanan, pero minsan iniiwan naman ako nila, o nagkataon lang siguro na wala sila. Ewan ko diyan, basta ang akin lang ay mahalaga sila sa akin, at kung sila ang may problema ay gagawin ko ang lahat as abot ng makakaya ko. Dahil isa sa mga prinsipyo ko ay “Hindi dapat iniiwan ang isang kaibigan”. Hindi man sila perpekto, tao lang din sila, at masaya ako kahit na may tuksuan, alitan, katangahan, katarantaduhan, iyakan at tawanan. Ang importante lahat ay nagmamahalan na magkaibigan. Ito ang listahan ng  aking inspirasyon, hindi man ito importante sa ibang pananaw ng ibang tao, pero sa akin malaki ang epekto nila sa akin.