Monday, December 12, 2016

Falling out of love is so hard...

Is there a standard way to move on with someone you never ever had a relationship with? Is moving on only for those who had broken relationships? Of course not! because the the hurt will always have the right to move on, even if it was a crush, admiration and etc whaTever you call it.. whats important is that you were hurt and the only way out is to move on. Are there standard wayz to move on? norms of doing it? will keeping yourself busy help? I had questioned and tried everything, but whenever I remember past memories, why does pain continue to surge through me. Why did I have to fall for someone who can't, won't, and wouldn't love me back. Life is screwing me to infinity, and beyond. MOVING ON are just two words but so hard to do... Is there like a "block" button for fallaing in love so we wouldn't be hoping FOR love. I know it's part of life getting hurt in love but, can we like make it as a choice... I'm sick and tired of the same routine over and over and over again: falling in love, confess, get busted and fail miserably hard to the ground broken in a BUZILLION pieces that you need an electron microscope to collect those broken pieces to fix a broken heart over and over... As you pick up the broken part of you, you would ask yourself; Is there something wrong with me? Am I that ugly? Don't I deserve to be happy? with all these going through your head so suddenly Moving on is difficult, but in the point of view of other people they think it's easy but it's not. How can you forget the person who made your world go round? The person of great inspiraTion for you to do great things. When will I feel the time that I truly moved on? Surely it's not loving someone else when you haven't gotten over the one you truly like, that's called replacement or substitution. Believe me I've tried, when you try loving someone as a substitute, the you see the one you love happy with someone, theres a big slap on your face, heart, everywhere ! even your soul gets slapped and you don't even know how'd that happen. It will never be that person you fell for. You know that feeling that, you fall for the personand never realizing you ever did until something just twitches and "boom" a light heavy feeling that you really want him/her. Now, I question mYself, if did I made efforts in moving on? Yes I did, I tried meeting new people, get on dates, making myself busy, and just looking at that person again even just for 1 second everything crumbles. "Falling in love" is easy... Will I learn to "Fall out of love"?

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